Has he tricked me again?

Maybe he got me again. Maybe this was his intention all along. Well, I’m talking about an ex. He says he loves me a few nights ago and I haven’t been able to sleep since. You see, I find my self staying up at night waiting for his text. I was never that way when we were friends. When we decided to be friends, I always felt that I was in control seeing as how he left me. But somehow he’s made me feel like the same little 17 year old girl I was over a year ago. Could it be possible that he had this planned all along? Or could it be that he expects me to be all over his jock just because he says the three magical words. It’s harder to decipher between whether he’s truthful or not. Any other person would or should I say, is saying that it’s a load of shit. I of all people should know it’s bullshit because of how he hurt me before. But I guess the “Cinderella Syndrome” in me just won’t accept it for what it really is, bullshit. I guess I just don’t what to face the music because of how I really loved him. And somehow I’m still foolish enough to do so, love him that is. I think it’s because of those feelings and syndromes alone that makes me feel the way I do. It’s weird because whatever I asked him, he didn’t take long to answer which is a way to tell that someone isn’t lying. I asked him a few days later did he mean all that he say that night and I said yeah he did. I’ve waited so long for him to say the things that he said like “I love you” or “I’ve always loved you” just so I could turn him down cold like he did me. But I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t be as cruel as he was to me. All I could say is that I loved him back, that the feeling was mutual. Maybe he’s just toying with my heart again and I just blindly fell for his tricks once again. Maybe I knew it all along and didn’t care because I like him so. Or is the ball in my court now because I caught on this time? Or am just as foolish and little as I was when this happened before. Sex and the city rocks. I don’t think I’d of ever thought this through and realized his tricks if I hadn’t started to watch this show lol.